...a day at a time.

Hey, everyone!

I just wanted to give you all a quick update and let you know that I'm still alive and kicking.  I had surgery on Wednesday, so I'm still on pain and nausea meds...but all in all, I'm feeling much better.  Physically and emotionally.

I really appreciate all the thoughts and prayers during my family's time of sorrow.  I have the most wonderful customers ever and am truly blessed.

I'm still feeling a little "bleh"...partially due to surgery, and partially due to crazy pregnancy-hormones that are still working their way out of my system...but I'm going to make an attempt to start filling orders again today.  To those of you who've been waiting a while...  I am SO sorry.  On top of already being behind, I totally didn't foresee a surgery in my future...especially the type I ended up having.  Hope you all can forgive me!  I'm gonna work my ass off all weekend to get the rest of these orders out.  (I need them done, too...  I have to pack!!!)  :)

Thanks again for all your patience, understanding, and compassion.  You guys rock.

Sad.

In light of current and recent events, this post will be brief...

We lost our baby.  

I'm still closing down temporarily after tomorrow, since we're still moving, and I'll be reopening as scheduled.  Please forgive me if I don't respond to messages, emails, comments, etc. in a timely manner.  We're still busy packing, and I'll be going in for some more tests and possible surgery next week.  

I'm probably not going to make the big "official" Facebook/Twitter announcement until after I'm done with all the doctor stuff next week, as there's still a slight glimmer of hope that maybe my ultrasound was wrong.  They're going to repeat it on Tuesday to be sure before I go in for a D&C on Wednesday.

I'm extremely emotional right now, and I'm doing everything I can to keep up with the demands of my business.  Please forgive me if I appear inattentive for the next week or so.  I'll still be filling orders and packing up my office, but my online presence may be lacking.  

Please keep me and my family in your thoughts and prayers while we go through this.  We wanted this baby so badly...but hopefully, after my test results come back, we'll find out that we can still try to have more.  (Or maybe they'll miraculously find a heart beat when they do my ultrasound on Tuesday.)

I feel absolutely shattered inside, but every time I look at my two beautiful girls, I realize how blessed I already am.     My heart may be broken,  but my spirits still stand strong and full of hope.  I just need some time to grieve and rearrange some things before I return to the normal, bubbly Veronica again.